Then a movie scene pops into your head. You see a little redheaded girl with headgear and braces go up to a tank in a dentist's office and start poking on the glass where the starfish is. Name that movie!
Idea! You decide to poke the glass aquarium to see if you can get your pets to do something. What happens?
I have no idea. Either those turtles get really annoyed and try to ignore your incessant tapping on their home or they start swimming away scared to death of that earthquake they feel are rocking their world. At least maybe you got them to do something.
Ok...so that's not exactly where I was going with that analogy. It kinda just turned into a story.
Do you ever really just want to do something fun with your friends, but your friends just want to float around in their own little world doing nothing that interesting to you?
Did I really just compare my friends to boring turtles? Yes, yes I did.
I have been sitting around all summer long bored out of my mind. I did do a few interesting things, but mostly I sat around all day every day on my computer doing absolutely nothing. Do you realize how boring that gets?
So naturally when I came back to school, I was expecting to do a ton of stuff in the first couple of weeks with my friends. We still have time. It's only been the first week and it's not like that was a full week or anything. We haven't really done anything that fun. Well, I take that back. There was that one night that we did a Walmart run, but it wasn't for ice cream or anything. Even then, to me, it seemed rather different than what usually happens. I think it had a lot to do with the magazine reading while walking through the store. Hello? I'm on a mission. No time for me to be reading magazines. Is this what our Walmart runs have come to? I'm not mad about it. I don't care. I'm just saying. I kinda want to go get lost in Meijers or something again because that would be entertaining. Let's play with foam swords or something.
I cannot say the same thing of my friends. They have been doing stuff all summer it seems. They were either working or on vacation. They had stuff to do.
So naturally, I guess when they get back to school, they would rather chill than get busy. We're in an opposite atmosphere right now.
Take for instance, the first night. After dinner, I was ready to do something with my friends. In fact, I had been that way all day. I wanted to just hang out with them again finally. They just wanted to unpack, so I let them unpack and I procrastinated. Then after dinner, I was in their room, but they were in their own little world, so I went to go unpack even though I really wanted to hang out. After I unpacked, I got trapped in my own little world, so when my friends randomly came in at certain points to talk to me, I really didn't want anything to do with them. I was in my zone.
So Chelsea, are you going to come hang out in our room tonight? You know, last year, I hung out in their room a lot even when we were all doing our own thing, but lately I really haven't felt like doing that. I mean, what's the point? What's the point of sitting in there if we're not all doing something together? We're "hanging out," yet not because we're all doing our own little thing. I just don't see the point. Ok, I do see some point to it, but lately I've just seen that as dumb to do.
Do something! For crying out loud, why can't we do something? I feel like I'm burning a twenty dollar bill sitting in my room doing nothing.
We can't do anything spontaneously if it's planned out because that wouldn't make it spontaneous. Spontaneous has to be random and at the weirdest of moments.
What do you suggest we do Chelsea? What should we do tonight?
I would love to answer that question, but I feel like anything I bring to the table is rotten, moldy, and worthless. I have really never been in charge of coming up with things to do for fun. Even as a kid in elementary school, my friends chose everything we did. I have really no experience coming up with things to do. And I guess as you can see from my slight answer to the question that yes, I do have confidence problems. I just feel like anything I say would be shot down. It has happened before, but not with planning activities to do.
It's the first weekend of school and I'm already complaining. This is just sad. Last year around this time, I didn't really have any friends or at least I didn't have a lot of really close friends, so I was just trying to chill after getting over orientation week.
I almost wish I could have gone through orientation week again as much as I might have said earlier this week that I was thankful for not having to go through it. At least orientation kept me busy and around people. It kept me out of my room and I was hardly homesick. This year, I have been dealing with bouts of being homesick and frankly it sucks.
I really think it's because I haven't been doing enough, but how do I get friends to do stuff when all they want to do is relax because they haven't hardly gotten to relax all summer?
I guess, how do I go about tapping on the glass aquarium without annoying the crap out of my turtle friends?
Do I even bother? The thought crosses my mind: go find other people to hang out with. Fine, maybe I will. But you know, I'm more comfortable watching my turtles bask in their sunlight than going out to find a new hobby.
As a sophomore, I feel like I have friends that are more concrete. Last year was spent developing relationships with people and this year many of those friendships have remained. There's always room though for more friends.
Haha, the image in my head right now is people getting stuck in wet pavement. Nice.
I guess I should probably stop wasting my time waiting for something to happen and do something myself. Make a suggestion. If it gets shot down, then go do it by yourself. Ok, doing it by myself scares the crap out of me especially if it's something really random that I would never ever in a million years dream of doing alone. I don't have to hang out with the same people every day, and even one of my goals this year is to get out and meet other people. Easier said than done I'm finding. By the way, it is so entertaining watching the freshman interact with each other. I wonder how weird I looked as a freshman.
Ah, freshman year. I miss it. I miss the craziness and late night shenanigans. It's just no fun when you have no one to do late night shenanigans with. Trust me, I tried during the summer to have some late night fun and it completely flopped out on me. FAIL!
Hey, can we hang out and actually do something? I know it's the beginning of the school year and this probably sounds incredibly selfish of me (sorry!), but I have been waiting all summer long to get back to school, so I could do really crazy things with my friends. Where has all the craziness gone to?
Let's get out and DO SOMETHING!
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